Thoughts on Strong and Brave

I was talking to Megan the other day and said something along the lines of “I sucked at Brave this year”. Which at the time seemed absolutely true and appropriate.

When I was thinking about a word last year, I couldn’t decide between Strong and Brave. I knew that 2013 needed to be a year for a Big Decision. I needed to either be Brave enough to say “okay let’s do this”, or Strong enough to say “this isn’t right”. Both words, and really many of the choices I made last year revolved around the Big Decision. It was always with me. I was obsessed.

So looking back at that aspect of the words, yes, I failed. But Strong and Brave were with me nonetheless. They didn’t abandon me, though I hated them for a long time. I did not want to be strong or brave, and I certainly wasn’t in any position to be making a Big Decision.

But you know what? I was pretty strong and brave this year. In totally unexpected ways.

I was strong for Jason when he needed me at the beginning of the year.
My body strengthened and I lost twenty pounds.
I had brave conversations this summer with the Little Man about the future.
I had many (many many) brave conversations with Jason.
I was strong and found a new doctor who is not a dick and understands HIPA.
I finished strong on our first 5k.
This has been a very strong year for my marriage.
I was brave enough to try out for new teams, and strong enough to leave one that wasn’t for me.
My communication with my best friend is stronger than it has been in years.
I was brave and met with scary in-laws (who turned out to be not scary at all)
I was very brave twice this year and let someone cut out chunks of my eyelid.

And I’m sure there is more, but that’s off the top of my head.

So while I did fail at my original intentions for my words, I found other ways to honor them. I’m pretty happy with that. 🙂

One funny thing about having two words (well really three if you count our family word). In one recent PRT episode, Izzy was being silly and suggested that someone choose multiple hyphenated words. I totally should have done that! Strong- Brave. Or Strong and/ or Brave. And what I really ended up with was Strong-ish and Somewhat-Brave. That works 🙂

I do have a word in mind for 2014, but I want to live with it a few more days to make sure. It really could have been 2013’s word. Just like Dorothy, I had it in me all along. It was hanging out all year, taking a backseat to Strong and Brave. It is vitally important, but not nearly so scary. And whatever the Big Decision ends up being, it will play a huge role.

Cryptic enough for you? Any guesses?

Currently

I really like Kristin’s new Currently cards. Great for Project Life. I’m trying to think of ways to incorporate my handwriting into my digital PL this year, so these could definitely help with that.

So here are my Currents:
Watching- Top Chef, Big Bang Theory, just caught up with Elementary
Reading- WebMD, Real Simple, a whole lot of blogs
Listening- back episodes of Paperclipping Roundtable
Making- LO’s for challenges and CT assignments
Feeling- anxious
Planning- menus
Loving- working out as a stress relief… pretzels and Nutella as an additional stress relief

And a few others I’ll throw in just because…
Super annoyed by the complete lack of journalistic integrity CBS is showing right now.
Excited about all the new Project Life kits.
Wishing they would add a paypal option to the AC Digitals store so I can actually buy some of them someday.
Hearing the dog downstairs barking… barking… barking.
Remembering why I like cats.
Trying to be brave. And strong.
Thinking it’s going to be a long two weeks.
Looking forward to Oshogatsu this weekend.

Posting might be a little sparse for the next few weeks. Hopefully things will be back to normal around the middle of February. I’ll be around, always on instagram, sometimes on Twitter.

Mile A Day

I did it!

Mile a day web

I walked a mile a day (almost) every day between Thanksgiving and New Years Day.

See this post for my inspiration to get started.

Yes, I skipped a few days. Yes, I forgot to take a few pictures along the way.

No, I don’t care.

This is one of those things that for me, is way more about the process than the outcome. This is the most consistent I’ve been about moving my body in a long time. And I’m pretty damned proud of that. I so needed this.

After the fateful visit to the pumpkin patch I was feeling pretty shaky, literally. My body was shaky after weeks on crutches. And I was emotionally shaky after weeks of barely leaving the house. But obviously I needed to get back on the horse, so to speak. I couldn’t stay in the house and avoid all non-concrete surfaces forever. So this was great timing for me.

I walked a lot. I walked around my dad and stepmom’s neighborhood. I walked the streets of downtown Nashville. I walked up a mountain in Chattanooga. I walked around the complex. I walked in the gym. I walked to DVD’s in my living room. I walked in the evenings with Jason. Towards the end I even added weights to my walks. Miss Kitty photobombed me often.

I didn’t run at all. I’m hoping that this time next year I’ll be in running shape. I’m looking forward to that.

So on to the next challenge…

For January I’m going to kick it up a notch. I’m going to walk 40 miles and I’m going to add strength training to my routine. The extra walking shouldn’t be a problem. I am worried about the strength training though. I really detest strength training. I’m not one of those cardio loving girls that’s afraid to get big and muscular, I just think it’s incredibly boring. So I might have to bribe myself. They’ll be short, just six basic exercises. Something easy to get me into the habit.

So here’s the plan for January- 40 miles and 12 strength training sessions.

Let’s do this!

LO Credits:
A New Day Cardstocks by Inspired By Dominic
Ever So Thankful Template by J Billingsley

Two Little Words

It’s that time of year again. Time to think of resolutions. For some of us, resolutions take the form of picking One Little Word. I have been semi-doing OLW for a few years now, without even realizing it. I didn’t read about OLW until late 2011, but I had sort of been doing it on my own. I would pick a word or phrase and try to let it influence me in my life for the coming year. I’ve never taken Ali’s class, but hope to one day.

Here are some of my past words/phrases

2012- Do
2011- Go outside
2010- Keep in touch/ Communicate
2009- Change

This year I put a lot of thought into my Word. I narrowed it down to four words, then two. And then I kind of got stuck. Both are great words. One of them I can totally embrace. The other, I’m not sure if I’m ready for, but I feel like I need it this year. One is safe, one is scary.

So I think I’ll just pick them both, and see where they take me. They are very similar anyway.

My Words are-

Strong and Brave

I’ll get more into why I picked them in a later post. Right now I’m just happy to have them. Excited to live with them this year.